[ He hears Cilan, but Red doesn't answer, even though he eventually turns to face him, but only to look at him once or twice.
If he tells him, he's going to be miserable. He can already picture the way his expression will fall more from what it was. And then what will it be like? Will Cilan pretend to be fine? But even with his own conflicting feelings, Sonia made him so... happy. How he would suddenly think about her, how he was sure he could tell she was on his mind just by the slightest change of expression on his face. ]
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[ He doesn't want to make him miserable. He doesn't want him to lose that light about him... ]
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If he tells him, he's going to be miserable. He can already picture the way his expression will fall more from what it was. And then what will it be like? Will Cilan pretend to be fine? But even with his own conflicting feelings, Sonia made him so... happy. How he would suddenly think about her, how he was sure he could tell she was on his mind just by the slightest change of expression on his face. ]
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[ He doesn't want to make him miserable. He doesn't want him to lose that light about him... ]